Happy New Year!

"Our worst fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'who am I to be so brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are we not to be? You are a child of God: Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
~Marianne Williamson, her book "A RETURN TO LOVE", 1992

A New Year is upon us. Many will take the time to make New Year Resolutions and to redefine themselves-who they are, who they will strive to be. I challenge everyone to make this year one of their best. If your 2006 resolutions have not come to fruition, then reevaluate your year and what were your obstacles.

I sat on Saturday with a client discussing the future and the changes that would come for them in the New Year. I sat talking and feeling as if I was a charlitan. Spouting words of wisdom, support and encouragement-words I have heard, read and/or thought of and told myself-words I did not allow to penetrate into my own soul. Saturday night I sat with some other clients watching Coach Carter and heard the above quote-with tears in my eyes. I had just sat and told the client earlier about letting her light shine and being a source of light for those around her. Spoke to her about removing negative people, negetive energy, from her life and working on building her future. Here I am coming into the New Year and what of this have I followed?

A New Year is not the only time for change. Everyday is a new beginning. Mistakes are made, resolutions slip, things take priority over others-just keep trying and one day you'll get it right.

Blessed

I have a friend, whom I met by chance. He is the greatest friend one could ever have. I love him so. He tells me jokes to brighten my day, sends my sweet nothings to let me know I’m worth it, tells me the truth plain as can be to let me know I should care as much as he. My friend, my friend, my friend! In a matter of twenty minutes he made me smile, cry, scream and laugh. What would my life be like without him, my friend? I dare not ask because I do not wish to know. As we spoke all I could think about was how good of a friend he has been and how good of a God there is to place him in my life. He listened to me until two in the morning as I cried and he listened again and gave it to me raw to let me know this too shall pass. I love my D!

Man meets Woman...

I wanted to write this post like three days ago but held off. Partially cause I ddn't have internet service. Now, I've calmed down so I'm going to take a different approach. The story: Man meets woman. Man and woman go out. Man and woman become an item. Man and woman break up. Man and woman get back together. Man and woman break up. Man and woman wonder why they can't stop getting back together-they are back together. Woman finds out about another woman. Woman confronts man. Man explains situation-separated. Man leans on his female "friend" for support. Man and woman are trying to work out differences. Woman hears of a third female. Man explains third female is a friend. Man claims love and commitment to woman. Woman is working on trusting man. Man is caught with third female. Woman wants to kill man. Man still trying to explain all three females. Woman is fed up with MEN.

Sounds interesting huh? All to familiar to some. A conversation started on Myspace (yes, the joys of myspace) regarding love versus lust. As I was thinking about the above situation, I thought-the woman is in the love (keeps going back), the man is in lust (just trying to keep "it" around). Pissed me the hell off. Definitions go out the door when dealing with humans. To each his own is rightful and true. Each has his own definition of what love is and what it encompasses. The man may have been in love with "it", but he wasn't in love with the woman. The man can easily walk away feigning pain and heartbreak (true towards "it"), but the woman is left to piece together so much more. Heartbreak is a funny thing. It's like a heart attack-yes the heart can keep functioning after it, but is it ever as strong again? Will the woman ever love as openly, as hard, as selflessly as she did the first time? (Eloquence is not my strong suit so just read and filter as you please)