Remember...

Remember...taking Kool Aid and sugar to make your own candy mix? paging people with msgs like hello and i love you? playing video games, playing outside, doing your home work, watching tv, eating dinner and getting ready for the next day all before going to sleep (where did the time come from)? being in love and knowing that love was the only love you would ever have? $5 dances with all the food you could eat? lunch with your friends with card playing and trash talk to boot? late night phone calls filled with all the important things in life (who wore what, who was with whom, what you would wear and how you would do your hair, etc)? wishing you had ____ (money, a car, etc) in order to be able to do _____ (get a car, go to the mall, etc)? wishing you could change whatever about your body/personality now realizing how it makes you you? singing songs on the bus, at the bus spot, in the halls, in the classroom, at lunch and feeling really in touch with all your friends and classmates? the incident of all incidents that would leave you forever scarred needing to drop in the floor and die? the team/club you wanted to join/didn't have the time to join and saw how much fun they seemed to have? listening to the radio and dancing along in your room/bathroom/basement/yard? chilling with kids from the neighborhood just talking and wondering about life? taking walks through the neighborhood trying to be grown and sexy? looking for the ice cream truck though you rarely bought stuff from it cause they were the drug family as well (was that just my neighborhood?)? playing baseball in the field and getting into arguments over the calls? that song that could make you cry (and still can)?

"Back in the day I was a kid, I'm not a kid anymore. But some days I really wish I was a kid again..."

My motivation is slim to none. I have two papers that were due this week that have not been completed or turned in. I have skipped classes due to the shame of attending without them. This is a doctorate program-no excuses. I need motivation if I'm going to make it through. I think it's just a year of schooling with no break (two weeks hardly count). My brain is fried. I need time to chill with no deadlines for school or work. Top it all off my ankle has been killing me for the pass two days. My sister said it might be stress fracture which can heal itself it left to rest without the stressing activity. My stress fracture appears to be due to excessive driving. today alone i have been to Bowie, Waldorf, Ft. Wash, Hyattsville and Seat Pleasant. my ankle is screaming for me to stop, but i have to do my job right? who's gonna pay my bills if I take a week off? Any taker?

you missed me???? :-) I know, I'm back so wipe those tears! OK, so you're here so comment. Comment on the mundane-ness if you must. LOL! I'm in a silly mood. I'm hungry and too lazy to eat. I'm thirsty too. Someone bring me some food and a glass of limeade please? I have sooooo much work to do and no motivation. Motivate me! I know it should be internal, but it isn't and hasn't been for like the past month. What to do!?! I need to watch the Wiz and get my songs flowing--ease on down the road! I let someone borrow it and haven't seen it-partially because I haven't talked to him and because....I haven't talked to him. LOL!

I need to find a way to look older. Not older, but my age. The last five guys to approach me have all been in the 22-25 range. Little young bucks. I figured it's my clothes. Pay no attention to the outfit in the pic below. I look old in that! I am a jeans and t-shirt girl. I need to revamp my wardrobe. Any suggestions???? Comfortable, clean, tailored looks or, yes, there's an or, comfortable, flowing looks. I like to look like it was simple and not a fuss to create. Accessories-don't do them too much, but they do make an outfit. My issue...I tend to remove them part way through the day. They get in my way or make too much noise. My style icons...Sanaa Lathan or Kerry Washington. Now get to work!!!!

Iotas do SGRho Gurl Rap. SGRhos Gon Love This One.

I love it! I love it! I love it! Eee-Yip!

702

Can we get it together... Listening to videos (LOL-watching videos). The lyrics to certain songs just ring in your head, you know? I love those songs-good or bad-the ones that can make you smile and/or cry just belting out the lyrics. I love you-Faith, Any song from the Wiz, Emotions-Destiny's Child, Another SAd Love Song-Toni Braxton, One in a Million-Larry Graham (?), Any song from Rent, Tomorrow-Tevin Campbell.... the list could go on. (You all will have to pardon my blog mistakes-my c key has mysteriously been messed up). My ousing posted about songs and smells that take a person back-I'm reading her posts as I'm watching TV and started thinking about songs that take me back and 702's song came on and it has present day relevance. I don't know of any smells...wait, my dad's cologne reminds me of leaving for work/school in the AM; my mom's perfume of a night out; the smell of DC in the AM of waking up at granny's house; gas station-the smell when you first pull in-of traveling (simple huh?); and...ummma certain someone's cologne of deep hugs. This post has to come to an end cause a sister needs to pack up for work.

SoRhors!!!!

I love my SoRhors! Here's a couple of pics of us at Mid Winter Conference.

Me with other chapter members and then the Three Musketeers Fall '06 (that's me to the far right)!

Happy New Year!

"Our worst fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'who am I to be so brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are we not to be? You are a child of God: Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
~Marianne Williamson, her book "A RETURN TO LOVE", 1992

A New Year is upon us. Many will take the time to make New Year Resolutions and to redefine themselves-who they are, who they will strive to be. I challenge everyone to make this year one of their best. If your 2006 resolutions have not come to fruition, then reevaluate your year and what were your obstacles.

I sat on Saturday with a client discussing the future and the changes that would come for them in the New Year. I sat talking and feeling as if I was a charlitan. Spouting words of wisdom, support and encouragement-words I have heard, read and/or thought of and told myself-words I did not allow to penetrate into my own soul. Saturday night I sat with some other clients watching Coach Carter and heard the above quote-with tears in my eyes. I had just sat and told the client earlier about letting her light shine and being a source of light for those around her. Spoke to her about removing negative people, negetive energy, from her life and working on building her future. Here I am coming into the New Year and what of this have I followed?

A New Year is not the only time for change. Everyday is a new beginning. Mistakes are made, resolutions slip, things take priority over others-just keep trying and one day you'll get it right.